July was possibly the worst month I’ve ever had. 

Beyond the endless mishaps, accidents, and general crappy occurences, July saw the unfortunate (and ridiculous) end of my 4-year relationship and the tragic end to a friend’s life. 

Along with all of these, July also witnessed my move into my first apartment by myself, which sadly means no money and no baking- for the moment, at least.  And so, since I have no new pictures to show you, I would like to dedicate this post to Cassie and end it with the quote that sustained me until August.

“I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible, and how it can actually ache in places you didn’t know you had inside you. And it doesn’t matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of Chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends, you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong, or how you could have misunderstood.  And how in the hell, for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy.  And sometimes you can convince yourself that he’ll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you’ll go somewhere new, and you’ll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again, and little pieces of your soul will finally come back.  And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade.”

-Kate Winslet, The Holiday

Rest in Peace.

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